I Wanted to Stay

I wanted to stay, to make things okay,
But life had other plans.
I wanted to say I'd gladly wait,
That I understand your fears,
Yet you gave me no chances,
Leaving a hot coffee in your wake.
Is it me? Or is it you? Is it both of us?
I cannot tell as I look in the mirror.
Am I that needy that I pushed you away?
I could handle it if you were just not that in to me
But then I think of her.
Why'd you say hello and take to me to the mall
If you couldn't let go of her?
I wanted to fix all the pain
So we could move on and enjoy the rain
But find myself staring at your message
Confusing building in my brain.
How do I move on to friendship
When I had more in my sights?
I wanted to stay, but you ran away.