On My Mind

At the forefront of my mind
And still so far away,
These words of mine linger
As I struggle for something to say.
Some might call me unsocial,
A closed or unfriendly type,
But what they cannot see
Is how I fear being me.
I learn what's acceptable,
By what they don't say;
I see a two-way life
Marked out as my future path.
I yearn to reveal the unique me
Who resides inside this mind
While attempting to keep everyone
Happy around me.
I cannot live with this heaviness
Of all I see and hear,
Welled up inside my soul
Ready to burst from it's shell.
I may be viewed as moody,
Or socially ostracized,
But I will say these words
For I cannot stuff them
In another crag to hide.
~ mbw